There are moments in life when the weight of unmet expectations, relational pain, and personal failure make us feel beyond rescue. But even in our darkest valleys, the transformative power of God’s mercy is still in pursuit. This testimony is a powerful reminder that when we cry out from the mess we’ve made, God doesn’t turn away—He runs to us, offering hope and inspiration. What follows is the story of a woman who rediscovered the grace she once knew and the Savior who had never left her side. 

My name is Muthoni Munyi. I am a 47-year-old Kenyan woman and the blessed mother of three fantastic, jubilant boys—glory be to God! This is part of my testimony. I share it in obedience to Scripture, which calls us to declare the works of the Lord. Perhaps through my story, someone else will recognise the hand of God in their own life and be encouraged to trust Him more. I pray this serves as a wake-up call—to believe in what God has done, is doing, and will continue to do. And more than that, I hope you’ll be inspired to share your own story, realising the power it holds to inspire and empower others, that together, we may lift the name of Jesus.

“If the Lord had not been on my side…”

Although I was raised in a Christian home and believed in Jesus Christ, my life was largely shaped by my feelings, desires, and plans. I carried the name of a Christian but lacked the transformation that comes from truly living by God’s Word.

When I entered marriage and became a mother, I approached it with a self-centred mindset. Everything was about my goals, dreams, and expectations—wishes none of which seemed to be fulfilled as I had hoped. Instead of joy, I found deep loneliness in my marriage, which soon gave way to conflict, resentment, and bitterness toward my spouse. To make matters worse, we were diagnosed with severe infertility and told we could never have children. That news shattered me. It crushed everything I had imagined about my future. I was devastated—angry at God, at my husband, at the doctors, and even at the idea of adoption.

After seven painful years of trying and hoping, I finally gave up. I walked away from my marriage in anger, frustration and hopelessness in search of peace and healing somewhere—anywhere—else. Throughout that painful season, I continued to cry out to God—often through tears, confusion, and exhaustion. And in His perfect faithfulness, He came like an army on a rescue mission, Psalm 124:1-5 AMP.  He met me in my brokenness and brought clarity and direction to my life.

I recognised that the salvation I had once acknowledged in my youth was reawakened. This wasn’t religion. This was a rescue. God stepped into my story—not because of anything good I had done or could ever do—but because of His mercy and grace towards me.

Once I acknowledged that apart from Christ, I could do nothing, I began to sense the Holy Spirit drawing me deeper into reading the scriptures. Slowly, day by day, my heart and conscience began to soften. My perspective began to shift, and the feelings of resentment within me gradually gave way to a sense of peace.

As I spent more time in the Word and in prayer, something changed. It was like dying to an old version of myself. My desires, my thoughts, my priorities—everything started to transform. This inner change didn’t come from striving, but from soaking in God’s comforting presence and letting Him do what only He can, bringing reassurance and comfort – Psalm 124:5-8 AMP.

And who is like our God, not only did He restore my marriage but blessed us with children – all to the glory of His majestic name. I’ve come to know His peace like never before. And I now live with a greater sense of surrender, knowing that it was and had never been about me—it was always about what God through Christ has done for me, even when I didn’t realise or appreciate it.

Reflection Question

Are you letting the Lord fight for you, or are you still trying to force things to work out through your efforts?

Prayer

Gracious, merciful and ever-faithful God, the Father of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, thank You for stepping into our mess with mercy and power. Teach us to stop striving and start surrendering. May every broken dream be a doorway into more profound grace. This we pray, trusting and believing in the mighty name of Jesus. Amen.